Thursday, January 17, 2013

What does yaoi have to do with moving?

Good question, eh?

Story goes, I'm going to move out of my apartment temporarily, because my landlord is going to renovate the whole building. Nice of them, huh? New bathroom, new kitchen.... yeah, I'm happy. And I feel really bad. I don't like moving. So, in moving, I though I'd digitalize my yaoi. That which I've written myself, that is. And as this is where I dump my yaoi, I'll just go ahead and post it all. Happy reading!


Story Nr 1: Final Fantasy. Mostly 7. With a touch of Final Fantasy X and Enchanted Arms.... This story has been lifted out of the Final Fantasy universe and characters are much younger and their relationships altered.



”Toya, what should we do about this?”
”Should we do anything? I don't think we should do anything.”
                             Sephiroth looked thoughtfully at his boyfriend. They had come to the conclusion that they were not compatible. They were breaking up, it was inevitable. It made Sephiroth sad. Toya looked at Sephiroth, saw his distress.
“If we don't do anything...”
“We'll just keep hurting each other”, interrupted Sephiroth. “We don’t want to hurt each other, do we?”
                             Toya shook his head.
“You are my best friend”, he said. “I don't want to lose you.”
“I'll always be your best friend”, said Sephiroth. “But I worry, if we don’t break up, maybe we'll start fighting and stuff...”
“I know you're right”, muttered Toya.
                             Sephiroth moved to the window. He felt cold. He felt cruel. But he knew letting Toya go was the best thing he could do. Loving someone meant doing what was best for them, and Sephiroth wasn't the best for Toya. He knew this, however much it hurt. Tears burned in his eyes, and a moment later on his cheeks. Silence stretched long between them. After a while, Toya rose from his chair and walked over to Sephiroth. Put a hand on his silver hair. Such beautiful hair. Such a beautiful man he had had the privilege to love for two long years. Sephiroth turned and embraced Toya.
“Tell me we will always be friends”, he whispered. “If we can't be friends...”
                             Toya actually laughed a little. Silly Sephiroth, of course they were friends. They weren't breaking up because they weren't friends, but because they couldn’t fill each other’s needs.
                             As they stood there, the school bell chimed. The warning bell, it was 21:45, fifteen minutes 'til the schools facilities would close, and all the little kiddies should be in bed.
“Got to go”, said Toya softly.
“Do you have to?”
“Yes, I do. I am the Dorm Prefect.”
                             Sephiroth let go reluctantly.
“Tomorrow, we won’t be boyfriends any more”, he said. “So we probably should try to remember that.”
“Yeah”, said Toya. “It will be hard. But we will be best friends. So it's not like we shouldn't talk or something.”
                             Sephiroth nodded. Toya left. Sephiroth locked the door and went to stand by the window. It was snowing outside, winter holidays around the corner. Somehow, it would be good to go home after this. He needed a break, from school, from Toya, from the world. Would be nice to get to be a little boy again, get attention from his oh, so busy father, get to boss people around, have them obey his ever wish. He wished he wasn't so tall, felt the desire to be small, to sit in his father’s lap, being taken care of. Or even better, his mothers.  Sephiroth felt a tear run down his cheek. He missed his mother. She had died when he was nine. Everything felt so confused and hopeless. He sat down on the bed. Before he knew it, he was crying for real. He sat there crying for fifteen minutes, feeling rather sorry for himself, mourning the losses in his life. Just as he thought to get a grip and go to bed, there was a knock on the door and it was unlocked from the outside. In came Auron, Sephiroth’s mentor since he was 3 years old. Auron was in some ways closer to Sephiroth than Sephiroth’s father was.
“Õji-sama”, he said in way of greeting.
“Auron”, muttered Sephiroth and wiped his tears. “What’s up?”
“I’m just doing your fathers will”, said Auron lightly. “Checking up on his sons. Why are you crying?”

No comments:

Post a Comment